I need a child custody lawyer

I have trial on June 14th for custody and child support. I have been unrepresented due to the expensive upfront cost that most family law lawyers require. I really need help and feel almost defeated at the point. I have two sons with my ex Gregory Hicks Jr. He obtained the children by lying in a emergency custody hearing. He had no proof of his claims. Because I went to court unrepresented the judge didn’t really listen to me. We have been going through this since 2018. We tried mediation, that has since expired. Gregory does not have legal custody of my children, but he keeps them 5 days a week in his home that he shares with his girlfriend/ other kid’s mother. Per the emergency custody hearing back in 2020 which since expired I only see my kids on Saturday and Sunday ( one overnight) that was the supposed agreement before we came back to court for custody court. This has taken over 2 years to officially get back on the judge’s docket. Gregory does not tell me what he does with the children when he’s not home, which is often. He travels a lot due to the nature of his business and doesn’t notify me or give me the option to have my kid’s. Instead they are over at other people’s home or left in the care of his girlfriend Kimberly who is not a legal guardian. He doesn’t communicate about school, medical ,emotional needs absolutely nothing.I an tired of this. I have to gain information through my 14 year son mostly. Now Gregory is requesting that I pay him child support when he removed my kids from me without my consent. I left a really bad relationship with him back in 2018 due to his physical abuse of me, emotional tormoil and consistent cheating. He has somehow made me look like the unfit parent by keeping my kids this long. He has changed their address multiple times as well as schools and doctors. I am on the outside of my kids lives except for Saturday and Sunday which is clearly not enough time. My relationship with my boys has suffered due to this nightmare. I don’t have much unfront money, I understand that a lawyer would have less than a month to prepare for court. But I have plenty of evidence that I have gathered on my own to assist. I just need help. I can pay in a payment plan, I am awaiting a large settlement from an accident that I was involved last year. I will pay!! I don’t want to go into court unprepared again vs this narcissist man and his lawyers. Last time I did, I lost ?. I need my kids back in my life. I want to be there for them. I am tired of getting hurt by this man and his Ill wills for me. Please