This is a story of someone who has suffered swear depression and twice caused by problematic childhood, youth and some daily life struggles and difficulties after married life. NHS crisis team diagnosed that I am suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder PTSD. It does not have to match your circumstances and your story might be totally different but depression is such a liar it conveniences everyone suffering from it that it is permanent pain and there is no way out. This book is not a "one big solution" to fix everything, it is my story how I came out of this downward spiral with the help of wisdom of eastern mind science and logic of western scientific therapies and I live a happy life moment to moment.